procrastination, or something deeper?

my second entry, after so long.

i can't believe i can procrastinate in writing my own blog! its supposed to be something fun, for god's sake. i think the underlying reason is that i cant seem to make up my mind whether to make this blog a bare-all journal or just a sharing of my thoughts n feelings on selective, safe, n non-offensive subjects. i also dont know if i prefer total strangers to read this, as compared to people who actually know me. in which group shall i find comfort and empathy? strangers might not give a shit, and familiar people might not understand, and god-forbid, place judgement.

*sigh* i guess its just human nature to be looked at and not found wanting; to be accepted as you are and not found lacking. in my countinuous journey of self-discovery, i find that i am still scared to be an individual, to stand out in the crowd, and to stand for my own principles even if its opposes the conventional belief of society. or perhaps i am simply generic, made from the same mould that shapes the typical, nothing unique or special. is it inbred? or simply a result of my environment and upbringing? for now, i just hope that i have not yet lost the sense of curiosity towards the world; of wanting to know, experience, and learn. everything.

Like A Virgin..

wow. my first time ever. hello blogworld! XOXO